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Friday, 16 May 2008
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Tha Carter II
By Lil Wayne
Weezy Baby
see relatedMarriage.....Why must I be labeled bitter?
Pre K: I don't think god has anything to do with marriage.. marriage is an institution built on the foundation of politics and economics but sold to public as one of holy significance and the cosmic word, love.
So i was checkin my subscriptions and came across this from tha homie Pre K (you guys should check out his blog...it's truth) anywayz this is exactly what i've been thinking for soooo long....a lot of recent events (my friends gettin married and meeting people around my age that married) have led to this revelation...THE WORD MARRIAGE IS FAKE AND SALES NOTHING BUT FANTASIES!!!
When we're children we are told FAIRYTALES (aka some bored person's fantasies) of lost maidens being swept off their feet by their prince charming and living happily ever after riding into the sunset (end scene)...but the stories don't include the truths and work you have to put in....So we grow up with these fantasies engrained in our brains and have us thinkin this how love will be...Even when we grow up movies are made based of these fantasies (more brainwashing of weak relationships built on physical attractions or some fading characteristic)...then we find ourselves heartbroken when we don't end up living these fantasies in our everday lives and wonder why we're the only one's goin through this cuz love isn't suppose to be this way....WAKE UP!
So i've voiced this opinion to many people and for tha most part i've gotten good vibes back...people saying "i agree" or "yeah that's true" but there are a few people who get all upset and tell me that i'm just "another bitter black woman who got hurt and now has given up on love" This could be no further from tha truth...i have in no shape, form, or fashion given up on love! It's just that tha whole thought of marriage being this 'sacred institution that one only enters when he/she is fully prepared to share a faithful love' is simply for tha birds!!!
Now don't get me wrong, I am not sayin that all marriages are headed for destruction..i'm merely sayin that marriage has morphed from being somethin internal and personal between two people to an external word that is suppose to symbolize love. When the truth is love and marriage can certainly exist independantly without the other.....therefore they can not possibly define each other! In other words...don't think that a relationship can not be one of love because there is no marriage...because there can certainly be a marriage with no love!
People then say..well the bible says that marriage is sacred and relationships should be defined by it....however I believe that the marriages of today are NOT what GOD meant when he created the sacred union of marriage. We all know that things have changed an awful lot since biblical times, so until we understand what GOD really meant when he talked about marriages it is not fair to place HIM in the center of somethin that has no ties or pertains to HIM at all!
Like Sean Combs (Puff Daddy, Diddy or whateva he's being called these days) said when he was asked about why he never married Kim: "Kim never voiced that she wanted to be married. If she said she wants to get married today I'll marry her, but we never thought that would work for us. Marriage doesn't define what we have. I know a lot of married people and tha sh!t ain't that happy."
In other words IF IT AINT BROKE STOP TRYIN TO FIX IT!

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Borrowed Blog
Bored so I took this from DimpledGemini's blog see if you can figure them out:
Step 1: Put your MP3 player or whatever on random.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 25 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song [try not to use the chorus].
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Strike through when someone gets them right
Step 5: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING.1. When I first met you I could tell you were trouble right from tha start/When i walked past you turned ya head when ya girlfriend was standing there/Gave you my number just cuz i was in a hurry/ That when it all began how did you become my man
2. When you are standin here with me/I can see everything in me/You are the light that feeds my soul/ Girl you are everything devine/ In your love I will learn my wings to fly/ In your heart I will make my home
3. Girl, tell me only this that I have your heart for always/ and you want me by your side whispering the words I'll always love you/ And forever I will be your lover/ And I know if your really care I will always be there
4. You can't say I don't love you just because I cheat on you/ Cause you can't see all I do to keep you from knowing tha things I do
5. B!*ch I'm paid that's all i got to say/ Can't see lil niggas, tha money in tha way/ and I'm sittin high tha gangstas ride blazed/ And if ya ain't gon ride fly then you might as well hate
6. Where do we go who knows/ but each day gets better/ I just can't let her go/ oh no/ each kiss get's sweeter I just can't leave her no
7. Sometimes blindness finds me and leads me through ignorance not allowing us to gain experience and we become lifeless/ And other times I cover with self pity and walk aimlessly through reality so occasionally I choose to travel alone/ but never fulfill my possibilities so mostly I attempt to achieve balance by seeking right knowledge
8. I worry I weigh three times my body/ I worry I throw my fear around/ but this morning is a calm I can't explain/ The rock is melted only diamonds now remain
9. It's stormy outside and I need some where to go/ The day's just right and I wanna be with you for sho/ so jump in ya car baby and come over here/ we can do i whereva suga I just want you near
10. Now in tha club they be wantin mo to hit tha mic and get them to wobble on tha flo/ That's how it go
11. Been sittin thinkin bout you and I and wonder now we're not gettin along/ So frustrated cuz what we had was a happy home/ I don't know what the situation is/ But i can tell in tha way we kiss/ We don't talk no more it feel better when I'm alone
12. Quit talkin I'mma hang you by ya tongue/ Any motor mouth could be hung high/ We don't f*%k with niggas like fungi/ We don't even here ya
13. Tell me how you love me more/ and how you think i'm sexy baby/ that you don't want nobody else/ you don't want this guy/ you don't want that guy
14. It's the middle of tha night and we're both just sittin here/ I'm checkin out ya body the hot shorts and tank you wear/ Make me wanna do something freaky to your my baby/ Got to let me know something/ Cuz I need to know right here
15. I don't need me a basketball player/ what i need is somebody who's down for me/ And he don't have to have money/ His love is just like honey/ It's so sweet to me/ He can have everything in this world but he'll sacrifice it all for me/ and I made up my mind I'm in love this time and it feels so real
16. For some strange reason/ You're done pleasin me like it's okay/ Like a perm that's been left too long it's bout to burn/ The result is it just won't take/ Now it's all comin so clear to me know/ Misintrepreted oh I'm naive now?/
17. You never miss a good thing til it leaves you/ But finally I realize that I need you/ I want you back baby girl I need ya back gotta have ya back babe/ Heartbroken when you left my world/ Man I wish I would have kept my girl/ Cuz I love you/ I don't know what I'm gon do without my baby
18. Suddenly I feel like I wanna break loose/ Jump in my 6 and come and see you/ Girl I'm gonna do somethin that's brand new/ I got a kinky surprise for you
19. He met her in his hometown a couple years ago/ She was beautiful inside and out how could he just let her go/ He had girls on tha side that he tried to hide but some how she knew/ still she stayed she stayed
20. All the things that we been through/ You should understand me like i understand you/ Now baby i know that difference between right and wrong/ I ain't gonna do nothin to upset our happy home/ Don't get to excited when I come home late at night/ Cuz we only act like children when we argue fuss and fight
21. If I could have ya heart I sure would love ya/ I'd love you more than I could love myself/ Mountain high or vally low/ You have no idea just how far I would go/ I go put on my good clothes and I'd sing and dance/ I'd take tha time and i'd take tha chance/ I'd make ya laugh and I'd make ya cry/ I'mma tell you like this if ya ask me why
22. I wanna tell tha whole world about a friend of mine/ This little light of mine I'm finna let it shine/ I'm finna take ya back to them better times/ I'm finna talk about my momma if y'all don't mind
23. Sittin here in this chair waitin on you awww baby to see things my way/ but now a word do you say you won't even look my way/ Girl I'm spendin my dimes wasting my time talkin til i'm black and blue
24. Ever since you left me I been tryin to hide tha pain/ painting on a smile with lipstick/ Puttin on a big charade/ So if it come to keep pretending/ it's gettin harder every day/ It's plain to see I'm cold and hard since you turned and walked away
25. Never should've kissed you/ Never made that call/ I told myself in love i shouldn't fall/ Would've been a pleasure just to know you're name/ oooh look at me silly me now i'm back in love again

Thursday, 01 May 2008
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Currently Listening
Come Away with Me
By Norah Jones
see relatedLadies, NEVER let HIM choose what YOU become!
What Becomes Her?
She sees him walking, she likes his style
The way he licks his lips, the way he smiles
The mystery in his laugh, the coolness in his voice
The sexiness of his body, what becomes her without choice?
Lust becomes her, takes over her mind
The softness of his touch sends tingles up her spine
And everything she is and everything she does
She does it just to receive his love!
She lives her life for his happiness
She goes through the day for just one kiss
She gives herself and all that she has
Forever she wants this feeling to last
Love becomes her, as he makes her his wife
She’s now complete with the love of her life
Her feelings for him will never end
He’s her lover, husband, and her best friend!
She’ll give her life to see him smile
He sometimes hits her, but she’s in denial
She tells herself “he does it out of care”
“He wouldn’t hurt me, Love can’t be this unfair”
Pain becomes her, she gives her life
She ignores the hurts wanting to be the perfect wife
So she hides the bruises and hides the tears
And continues to endure the pain for years
He’s hitting her more and more everyday
She wants to leave, but love makes her stay
The bruises are larger and harder to hide
So she goes to her friend, the Lord, to confide
She asks “Why is this happening, When did it begin?”
Be begged “God please don’t let him hit me again!”
But the hitting never stopped and she stayed by his side
Death finally becomes her because she let it slide.
Shari Nikole – 4.3008

Wednesday, 12 March 2008
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Currently Listening
1st Born Second
By Bilal
see relatedMy Return....
It's been quite some time since i've been on xanga...but for some odd reason it's been on my mind a lot lately...so hence my return...here i am! I'm assuming all my readers have moved on..
A lot has gone on...i won't try to go back and fill in any gaps cuz i'll probably forget all tha important stuff...so i'll start from the present...I just recently got accepted to the Master's Program for Counseling Psychology at the University of Minnesota...i'm sooo excited!!! I've wanted to go here since my freshman year at GSU...so praises be to GOD! So i've been kinda busy lookin for somewhere to stay and a way to pay for all this...it's hard being a grown up..lol

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Currently Listening
A Nu Day
By Tamia
see relatedLate Night Thoughts
A Letter To My Mistaken Godsends (Now Known As The Great Pretenders)
This is a letter to my Great Pretenders
Who I hope after reading this will reconsider
The past attacks they’ve committed toward me
And give back the pieces they’ve stolen from me!
I want my pieces back….
Trust me when I say, regardless of if I freely gave them to you at the time
I was confused by your commercial swagga’ and your fake ass rhymes!
Now because you are holding hostage valuable pieces of my soul
I can never move on; I can never be whole.
I need my pieces back…
You were mistaken for a Godsend, someone I thought was right
So I stood there blinded while you tore me apart in broad daylight.
You’re good at what you do; you’re great at your game
I’m still here confused but you already moved on and switched lanes
I’m waiting to get my pieces back…
It’s very important for me to be complete
To go back to the me I used to be
I’m tied to you and I want to be free
So if you have the time, return my property
This is a letter to my Great Pretenders
Who I hope after reading this will reconsider
The past attacks they’ve committed toward me
And give back the pieces they’ve stolen from me!
Shari Nikole



